15 years and more

It is 3 plus am and I'm at Human Factory . I hate it especially when seeing Appa with tubes everywhere . *sigh* :( . I can't bear to see him like this .

The nurses are noisy , almost like a fish market in the wee hours in the morning . The two Chinese uncles whose also patients suddenly 'decided' to wake up and have their almost cymbal like chatter that seems to be banging 1000 cymbals all at one shot and sometimes their conversation sounded almost like fire crackers! . Patience , patience .... That's what I need ....

Besides the cymbals and fire crackers and also the fishmonger nurses trading fish , the StructoKabiven that they keep on pumping in Appa also isn't helping . His body starts to heat up and goes straight to his head, causing him to have terrible headache! :( .

Would be better if I took over his situation now , I think I would be able to endure the pain. I want to relief him from the pain that he is going through . Some many people have started advising on alternatives methods , I hope it's worth trying . I'm not giving up on him and so does everybody . Appa have more to offer and he must continue that .

We are waiting for the stent in this Human Factory , it's going to take at least 2 weeks . I hope we can get it fast .he can then start consuming food . He misses his idli and mutton curry . I want him to remember the taste of it again .

Don't worry Dear Appa , you COMPLETE us all and we are not giving up on you , not even a bit . Remember you told the Dr just now .. "I'm going to live another 15 years"...and with that statement you just showed that you refuse to give up on us .

Love you Appa .. For more than 15 years to come .

I Love You Appa

Turned 35 ! But so what right .

I trully did'nt feel like celebrating as my attention is concentrated to someone who I really care a lot - even writing about him now makes me teary eyed :( .

Although with everything - my birthday was celebrated by all my family members , and I am truly thankful for it . I was happy and sad - an extreme sense of emotion that is too difficult to describe . Father is not well and I knew I had to be strong - if not for everybody else - it was at least for my own sanity .

I was happy that I was still  alive to turn 35 and still be healthy and be with my baby :) .

I actually receive expensive gifts . It was very overwhelming .

My baby gave me Ipad 2 - it was to meet my thirst for reading .

Mala &Uday gave me this expensive Bonia's leather wallet - and it comes together with a guarantee card - wow , I havent used any wallet that expensive ever !

Akka gave me this gorgeous dress -  I love it that I'm still keeping it .

Father and Mother gave me cash - wow - and I bought myself a pair of jeans and tops with that - TQ!

Raje gave me a pink parker pen that have my name engrave on it - its beautiful .

And everybody surprise me with a valentine's cake with birthday song on the eve of my birthday . 

Although as happy as I am -  I am still sad , infact extremely sad that my heart and head is aching . I'm getting teary eyed almost every other minute since yesterday morning - the most heart wrenching news that I most feared was thrown to all of us like a nuclear bomb. It was really atomic.

Be strong appa and we will be strong for you - thats our promise . You are our hero and no one can replace you . We love you very much and BABA does too .

I've received so many gifts for my birthday , but the best gift that I have every year was having you around for the past many years and I want you around all my years ahead

 Love you very much .